[She seems genuinely shocked at the accusation. She may be used to this place in a way that Luz isn't, despite how much longer Luz has been around, but that's just because she's seen a lot more horrors than the human has, just by virtue of being born on the Boiling Isles.]
[Amity’s reaction causes Luz to immediately back off, not meaning to upset her.]
Whoa, whoa - I wasn’t trying to upset you, Amity! It’s just that, this place can be kind of less stressful than the Boiling Isles, you know? When things aren’t trying to kill us or put us in a circus or...
[That's the big difference. Ryslig and the Boiling Isles may look similar on the outside, with the monsters and the terrible incidents that happen month to month and the shadowy presence of a being people worship like a god looming over them... but it still feels so alien.]
I admit, it's kind of nice here. With... with you. [Another, more nervous twitch of her ears, and this time her cheeks do flush a little pink.] But I don't like it to the point where I'd want to stay here. That just feels all kinds of wrong.
[It's like going on vacation. You can have a nice hotel room with fancy furnishings, but as nice it is, it can never hope to beat your simple bed back home.]
Besides, there's stuff like that happening all the time here. Meaning that it's rare for this place to not be stressful.
I guess I wouldn't mind it if all of you guys were here with me. We wouldn't have to worry about Emperor Belos turning people he doesn't like into stone, but... [There's the Gods. Still.] You're right though, it's not home. And I want to go back to magic school, and see Gus and Willow again too.
I guess I'm kind of scared of going back, with everything that's happened. Don't get me wrong, I want to go back, but there's just... so much.
[But at least with Luz, it's only been a few months before this upheaval. For Amity, this is her whole life being shaken up; the reveal of Belos's nature peeled back the curtain of what she'd hoped was her future. That's.... even now, if Amity thinks too much about it, she reels.]
Honestly... I don't know what I'm going to do when we get back. [Her hands come up, wrapping around her mug as if trying to cling to its warmth.] I know it must have been shocking for you, but... all of that? Luz, I wanted to be a part of that. The Emperor's Coven is what I've worked hard for ever since I could cast my first spell - before that, even.
[Her family had to have known the truth. Or at least more than most people. She's not sure if she can keep going down that road, but if it's what her parents want for her...]
I guess... I can understand why you don't mind being here. I don't have any idea how I'm going to deal with that kind of uncertainty.
[For Luz, it was easy to break ties with the Covens. Having a teacher you looked up to who was anti-Coven kind of helps, but she knows Amity wanted to join. That's gotta be rough.]
I'm so sorry, Amity. I know you wanted to join. Belos is... well, I wish Belos was a better guy.
I don't. I mean... I don't think I do. What good will him turning over a new leaf do now? The damage has already been done.
[... Ah. Maybe... she's being too harsh; Luz's eternal optimism is one reason why Amity loves her so much, after all. She can't crush that.]
It's not just Belos, though. I mean... Lilith almost got turned to stone too. If she's considered so replaceable, despite being the leader of the most powerful coven on the Isles... just how bad is the Emperor's Coven on the inside?
[Even if she worked so hard to get into the coven, her skill wouldn't be the only thing scrutinized. Would she be kicked out or arrested for hanging out with Luz? For spending time at the Owl House? Amity always thought her life would get better once she made it into the coven, but now... now she's thinking it'd be the opposite.]
.... Sorry, Luz. I didn't mean to bring down the conversation like that. Problems at home are probably the last thing you want to talk about, huh?
I don't think there's anything we can do about that guy, he's not gonna stop, whatever it is he's planning on doing.
[She destroyed the door to the human world so... her mom is safe, at least. As for Lilith, she's still kind of mad at Lilith, but she's not going to bash Lilith in front of Amity, who seems to like genuinely like her.]
Actually, I didn't think I'd have anyone to talk to about what happened back on the Boiling Isles... if anything, I feel like I'm bringing down the conversation by talking about it.
[She offers a weak grin.]
I'm glad you're here though, Amity. Even if this place is pretty crazy. We'll figure things out, like we usually do.
Weeks ago, those words would have turned Amity into a gibbering mess. But now... well. Now, she still blushes all the way to her fuzzy ears, but she doesn't fall apart like she did after the grudgby match. She just... feels warm inside. In a good way.]
I- uh-
[... Okay, she does stutter a little, but she's not making a fool of herself this time.]
... Yeah. I'm glad you're here, too. Its nice, being able to. You know. Hang out outside of school.
[And with no worries that her parents might hear that she's hanging out with a human.]
I like doing things like... like this, too. Just talking, I mean. I never really hung out with people who didn't gossip all the time.
I'd, uh. I'd really like that. Spending more time with you, that is.
[God, why is it so hard to just be NORMAL with Luz??? She never had a problem acting like a functioning with around Boscha or Skara??? Why does this crush make her feel so different?]
It's... nice, with you around. When we're not trying to beat Boscha at grudgby or fighting terrifying nightmare monsters, that is.
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[She seems genuinely shocked at the accusation. She may be used to this place in a way that Luz isn't, despite how much longer Luz has been around, but that's just because she's seen a lot more horrors than the human has, just by virtue of being born on the Boiling Isles.]
What gave you that idea???
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Whoa, whoa - I wasn’t trying to upset you, Amity! It’s just that, this place can be kind of less stressful than the Boiling Isles, you know? When things aren’t trying to kill us or put us in a circus or...
[Shes rambling. She feels bad.]
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[That's the big difference. Ryslig and the Boiling Isles may look similar on the outside, with the monsters and the terrible incidents that happen month to month and the shadowy presence of a being people worship like a god looming over them... but it still feels so alien.]
I admit, it's kind of nice here. With... with you. [Another, more nervous twitch of her ears, and this time her cheeks do flush a little pink.] But I don't like it to the point where I'd want to stay here. That just feels all kinds of wrong.
[It's like going on vacation. You can have a nice hotel room with fancy furnishings, but as nice it is, it can never hope to beat your simple bed back home.]
Besides, there's stuff like that happening all the time here. Meaning that it's rare for this place to not be stressful.
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I guess I wouldn't mind it if all of you guys were here with me. We wouldn't have to worry about Emperor Belos turning people he doesn't like into stone, but... [There's the Gods. Still.] You're right though, it's not home. And I want to go back to magic school, and see Gus and Willow again too.
I guess I'm kind of scared of going back, with everything that's happened. Don't get me wrong, I want to go back, but there's just... so much.
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[But at least with Luz, it's only been a few months before this upheaval. For Amity, this is her whole life being shaken up; the reveal of Belos's nature peeled back the curtain of what she'd hoped was her future. That's.... even now, if Amity thinks too much about it, she reels.]
Honestly... I don't know what I'm going to do when we get back. [Her hands come up, wrapping around her mug as if trying to cling to its warmth.] I know it must have been shocking for you, but... all of that? Luz, I wanted to be a part of that. The Emperor's Coven is what I've worked hard for ever since I could cast my first spell - before that, even.
[Her family had to have known the truth. Or at least more than most people. She's not sure if she can keep going down that road, but if it's what her parents want for her...]
I guess... I can understand why you don't mind being here. I don't have any idea how I'm going to deal with that kind of uncertainty.
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I'm so sorry, Amity. I know you wanted to join. Belos is... well, I wish Belos was a better guy.
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I don't. I mean... I don't think I do. What good will him turning over a new leaf do now? The damage has already been done.
[... Ah. Maybe... she's being too harsh; Luz's eternal optimism is one reason why Amity loves her so much, after all. She can't crush that.]
It's not just Belos, though. I mean... Lilith almost got turned to stone too. If she's considered so replaceable, despite being the leader of the most powerful coven on the Isles... just how bad is the Emperor's Coven on the inside?
[Even if she worked so hard to get into the coven, her skill wouldn't be the only thing scrutinized. Would she be kicked out or arrested for hanging out with Luz? For spending time at the Owl House? Amity always thought her life would get better once she made it into the coven, but now... now she's thinking it'd be the opposite.]
.... Sorry, Luz. I didn't mean to bring down the conversation like that. Problems at home are probably the last thing you want to talk about, huh?
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[She destroyed the door to the human world so... her mom is safe, at least. As for Lilith, she's still kind of mad at Lilith, but she's not going to bash Lilith in front of Amity, who seems to like genuinely like her.]
Actually, I didn't think I'd have anyone to talk to about what happened back on the Boiling Isles... if anything, I feel like I'm bringing down the conversation by talking about it.
[She offers a weak grin.]
I'm glad you're here though, Amity. Even if this place is pretty crazy. We'll figure things out, like we usually do.
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Weeks ago, those words would have turned Amity into a gibbering mess. But now... well. Now, she still blushes all the way to her fuzzy ears, but she doesn't fall apart like she did after the grudgby match. She just... feels warm inside. In a good way.]
I- uh-
[... Okay, she does stutter a little, but she's not making a fool of herself this time.]
... Yeah. I'm glad you're here, too. Its nice, being able to. You know. Hang out outside of school.
[And with no worries that her parents might hear that she's hanging out with a human.]
I like doing things like... like this, too. Just talking, I mean. I never really hung out with people who didn't gossip all the time.
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[Now that there's no... school. Okay, there is a school but it's like normal school and ugh.]
And I don't gossip, so you don't have to worry about that!
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[God, why is it so hard to just be NORMAL with Luz??? She never had a problem acting like a functioning with around Boscha or Skara??? Why does this crush make her feel so different?]
It's... nice, with you around. When we're not trying to beat Boscha at grudgby or fighting terrifying nightmare monsters, that is.